Life in a NutShell.

What happens when you are forced to stop your life, literally in its tracks and steer the bull in an entirely opposite direction. I'm not going to say I'm sorry but my absence from my blog has been a challenging experience. From the third of December to the ninth I was laid out in a hospital bed. Unknowing of what my problem was. When I found out it was nothing short of complicated, a simple procedure could fix it but why was it so complex. Why the extended stay when it's usually a one day stay?  I know I'm probably confusing everyone, long story short. I had my gallbladder removed on the 6th. The doctors knew what the probably was but waited two days to take action.  So along came Tuesday, I just wanted to go home, hold my son and watch Zootopia, Yeah I said Zootopia, but what your child want to watch you know. For my health, I had to suffer along with what the doctors felt was best. Anyway, Tuesday in the evening they removed the organ su...

When the tables turn and your luck goes south where do you look to? Are you known to find others for help or to fight your battles..I'm sure that you've heard it all before., Yeah.. Yeah, be resilient, be the independent person you are. But why should we? Why in our ordinary lives are we subjected or looked down on if we even hint that we need help?  Perfection so drives us that we hide our emotions even from those closest to us. We tuck you away from the world and hide who we truly are. Please, don't put on a brave face to want the rest of the world, we were made to be unique and to be kind to one another. So Gosh damn. Ask for help,  we are social creatures and need help because we are not perfect like Barbie and Ken but little imperfect pieces to a larger life. Understand?.  I'm not saying that you can't strive for perfection if that's your preference then reach the stars but it should be personal goals not a social pressure. So when the tables...

What would you do? What would be your thoughts? If your life did a flip, a complete 180 and you were now standing on your head, and you couldn't see where you were going to land. You could not envision the path that this devastation might take you. Where will you go in the dark? Who do you see? I do not ask these questions to receive an answer but to put your mind in motion to think about the what if's and test your mind's eye. I have recently come to the conclusion that no one knows how they will react to tragedy. They may answer the question on how they think they would respond but 100% aren't entirely sure that their reactions will be the same. You wouldn't, I mean every situation is different, and the effects might ripple in various ways. Some stand in shock and others run for the hills. A flight or fight response. I believe that I would run, an instinctual reaction but I found that when the going gets tough, I do not turn my back with my "tail" bet...

I'm sure that you have all been in situations where you feel that your intentions don't matter and it's all a waste of time. Why should you have to fight and scrap and exhaust yourself trying to help someone that is obviously oblivious to it? During these past few days, I have learned that even with numerous attempts to help someone you love in any way and in the countless ways that you could. I mean you could bend over the back wards for them, and they treat you like you're not there and what you say doesn't matter, like your the invisible thought in their head. Their subconscious in a way, the one they choose to ignore, their Jiminy Cricket. Why does it even matter anymore,  we are all faced with embarrassment, hardships and love. But why do we have the urge to try and turn someone's life around when we can see their failing and they can't. I've always been told that I'm too nice and that everyone will walk over me and use me. That...

We've all been there and don't sit there and shake your head like your perfect because you know that you are not. We have all fallen victim to doing anything and everything to be wanted by those around us "the in crowd" or the "cool kids" that could earn you some bogus status that others honor. Well, you know what its all crap. I've tried my hardest in the past to be noticed not by boys who might have thought I was a pretty face but by anyone willing to talk to me and listen to what I said. Even to this day, I find myself unknowingly trying to locate the attention. Don't feel bad, we all need attention, do not say you don't because we all do its a part of our written biology we are programmed to be social and crave the attention, for someone to notice us, in any way is important and gives us that "feel good." Is there a point where it's pushed too far, and we become labeled from this crave, selfish, attention whore. Yes there...

I know that people say this a lot, forgive and forget. The sins and mistakes of the past should be forgiven to allow the heart to move on but how true is that? After all, our past defines us, how we act today is shaped by our previous triumphs. Not all of us have been through the rough times a lot of us have seen ugly and have had the ability to bounce back and keep going. On some level the experiences that we go through and I mean the truly traumatic ones scar us and affect the way we approach new things. I want to open up about my past. Yes, I am young in age but far more mature than my body. My mind is wise, and I believe that I have become mature based on past circumstances. I do not pride myself in things that I accomplish because I was not taught to praise but to be thankful to yourself, to show the world that you are content and comfortable on the outside no matter how you feel on the inside. I didn't have a childhood, at least, not a happy one, my memory consist ...

Hamlet, Well, more importantly, shakespeare. I'm not a big olden aged reading kind of girl, especially if I can understand it. But I know that the phrase"To be or not to be" means ALOT in how we define ourselves. It's drawn out plain and straightforward, you can either travel one road and create your person or take the other and become someone they would have never expected. The choice is yours, Sounds like the plot to the SAW films, doesn't it? Die or hurt yourself badly and live. That is not what I'm saying. You don't have to kill to "be" anything. Unless you choose the path of murdering those who did you wrong ( I am not condoning that ) In America you could be whoever you want, we have that choice, follow your heart and what you want to do. To me, Shakespeare was trying to say don't let society choose who you are. Meaning your parents or your teachers and peers have told you. strive and do what you want to be, Be a Doctor, singer, s...

Okay, so I know the usual Stuff that I take about but for once I want to switch it up and see how many inner children I can bring out if only for a few minutes. Call it a personal test. Fairy Tales, hmm, If your reading this and are anything like me, you believe in the possibility that a fairytale can come true, maybe not in the sense that Cinderella loses a shoe and finds her prince but the possibility that we all have true love waiting for us. I do because if Adam had Eve and they are a part of each other who's to say that in a sense we are just a part of a whole?. Fairy tales allow kids to open up their minds and give us hope that the world isn't completely bad, which it's not. We give the negatives in life the power to become more and turn the world evil that's our fault. It can be fixed, though. I wish that I could hold onto the imagination that I once had, talking to imaginary friends and playing house with my dolls, such young innocence that we once had onl...

Love, we all know it by heart after the fact, we feel it, express it and cherish it til death does us part. So why does it keep us from falling into a deep spiral of hatred? It almost acts as yin and yang  and Love and hates the balance that keeps the human race functioning. The median between the two is tolerance. We tolerate the actions and personalities of one another until these actions cancel out and affect home, by that I simply mean that actions of others go against what we believe so we act out and voice our opinions. I'm getting off topic, Love is there as a warm fuzzy feeling created by some higher power to keep our social need under control, we all crave it the affection that it offers, the butterflies when new love is found.  but I want to test that if love was erased, would we still be tolerant or would the scales fall towards hate, would there be a human race to recover from could we be resilient and form a civilized society again. My theory there ha...

When life gives you lemons, your reaction is to make lemonade and turn bad situations into good ones. I don't believe this to be true, asking to turn lemons into lemonade is like playing Russian Roulette with life not knowing how a situation will play out. People tend to take the road more traveled to fit in with societies cultural Norm but why not throw the lemons to the side and make orange juice instead. Declare yourself independent and not the independent as you do not need your daddy's money to life but the independent style and choices/ path that you take. Why try to be like the rest of creation when we can dare to be different, we can throw the lemons at the people that told us we couldn't because we can do what we set our minds to and achieve greatness in our own eyes. So what were not perfect and we make mistakes but that is what keeps life interesting and on the up. It's all about the F**** ups now and the lesson learned later. It's not always about w...

You know that feeling when you really want something and you think about it all day and then it changes and plans change and you're left with a feeling of despair and most people think it's because of their not good enough and self-evaluate because humans are known for ditching others. It sucks literally one of the worst feelings in my opinion especially when someone does ditch your plans, I understand that things come up but when you know that that's not the case. Humans are messed up, we are definitely a screwed up race. We screw each other over constantly and were left to pick up the emotional pieces of others. I believe anymore there is 10 % of people left on the planet that actually give a damn about others those that are mature enough to work through problems and give the deserving a second chance. We are greedy not only with money but with objects whether lust or unnecessary crap that leaves us feeling happy but only for a brief moment. I'm sorry if I offend...

Yeah, You've got it, I'm going to start a new blog about not my thoughts because that's my other blog but Life and instances in my life and opinions on topics and events that happen all across America because as a human and someone that is alive, (because I would hate to be dead.) I have a lot of opinions. So those of you who want to hear them then stay tuned. Thanks, -Maddie