Its been awhile.. but listen here.

Doesn't that seem ironic that I would name this blog post, it's been awhile. I truly mean that, and to my readers, I'm sorry because I have not kept my word and I would really like to explain why I have not been making posts about God knows what ( Laugh out loud)

Okay so to refresh, Yes, I am pregnant and had mentioned that I think in a post or two, well as it turns out, this is not a normal pregnancy. I'm not trying to turn this into a Mommy blog complaining about my stay at home life I'm just making the abnormal heard, so let's continue.

My first ultrasound happened a little over a week after my last post and by that time, fatigue and nausea set in all I could do was lay in bed ( Didn't need to be cleaning puke off my keyboard)

Okay, back to the ultrasound, my son, my fiance and myself waltz into the room and I pull up my shirt, on goes the gel and the tech places the wand right there just under my belly button. You'll never guess what we saw. Yeah, no there wasn't a shark or an alien figure staring back at us, but instead of one tiny 12-week baby head there was TWO !! oh yes, there was two heads! Twins, who could have ever guessed that I, a blonde nobody from a town you'd never heard before has the honor of giving birth to the semi - rare but oh so genetic Fraternal twins. To my surprise, I the college student and mother to one rambunctious almost three years old will be an instant mother of 3 and boys at that!. NO girls for this mom. ( I think I might start a football team).

So as you all can see, I have not forgotten about the Blog that I have sat up writing and shaping for your entertainment. I have simply had to step aside for awhile as other responsibilities lurk pretty near. Of course with having twins means higher risk, so there's the new pregnancy status that puts doctors and those around me on high alert as anything can happen, but the constant doctor visits and I mean constant at 23 weeks I am seeing my Ob every two weeks and having an ultrasound monthly to check on these tiny humans. It's exhausting and still quite a shock here as of late the reality has kicked in heavy and my emotions have been in overdrive.

I will be honest, My posts are going to be inconsistent for awhile, but I will be here to keep up and keep my readers entertained the best that I can. I can not guarantee that I will make constant posts but when I have the free time ( that includes all pregnancy woes) look for my posts.

Thank you to all,
Maddie.

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