To believe or do not believe is that the real question? The one that we hope we can somewhere in life achieve. Is there a point on the evolutionary timeline where we can believe what is said to us without a shadow of a doubt? 
I've recently stumbled into a part of my life where I am in a constant cloud of doubt not only from others but in myself, my mind recently has filled with demanding questions that often leave me confused. I know that many of you can relate as we all seem to find ourselves doubting this or that. As a blogger in creating the honest blogging site, I feel that I need be honest not only with myself but my readers who have stuck with me. Any true writer knows that writing helps. So how can I find the believability again? Society might be a lost cause but am I? Are You? It just seems like an impossible task and undefeated quest that when up 10 levels your enemy kills you, (Yes, I used gamer lingo) Why do our minds race the way they do? we constantly dwell on the nonsense, to others but what is meaningful to us. A lot of the time I find myself looking into my past, there is also something missing in the present that was there in the past. In the stages of life things change, so why not our feelings right? That's reasonable. But, there is that doubt, the inability, creeping up. You didn't doubt yourself as a kid, you flew through the motions and worked harder. As an adult though, your hardest can never be good enough. The constant fight that we are all battling whether at work or in home life, will always be there. In those teenage years, plenty of battles were fought and won time and time again and we moved on. Sure, there was dramatic times but that's what those years were about and time and time again, they were fun. After the responsibility hits, you stop believing in the possibilities because the realities make the daydreams impossible. You lose the sense of wonder and fulfillment and great plans for the future because the reality of it all is. It's a harsh world and until changes are made, people's dreams can not come true. When there are daily struggles and problems because of who you are. Sad to say its only on the decline, So to all the teenagers out there hold on to your sense of wonder it's not over yet.
I'm not trying to diss on the adult life, Yeah, it's not cookies and rainbows but it packs a punch, one that has some great things in it. Even when you, me or anyone you know is down in the dumps and doubting everything. There is always something there to keep that smile wide. Maybe you have found the greatest group of friends or found the love of your life. Maybe you love the homelife and are a suburban family with a handful of kids. You can doubt yourself all the time but believing in yourself is the best thing you can gift to you. You may not have achieved that once dream job but you have adjusted to the reality and have found something to work toward, a goal to achieve and finding the end of your goal is an achievement to smile about. When you doubt yourself or the others around you find comfort and know that "perfect" even though it defined in the dictionary does not mean its a requirement in life. Perfection should mean just the way you are.
I am now going to go choke on my own words and suck it up because I have my own way.
(I also want to note, that believability does not only pertain to your lives but the lives of those around you, I have found that it is hard to believe in those that have wronged you before but using your judgment and trusting your instincts will help in any situation no matter the outcome)
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I've recently stumbled into a part of my life where I am in a constant cloud of doubt not only from others but in myself, my mind recently has filled with demanding questions that often leave me confused. I know that many of you can relate as we all seem to find ourselves doubting this or that. As a blogger in creating the honest blogging site, I feel that I need be honest not only with myself but my readers who have stuck with me. Any true writer knows that writing helps. So how can I find the believability again? Society might be a lost cause but am I? Are You? It just seems like an impossible task and undefeated quest that when up 10 levels your enemy kills you, (Yes, I used gamer lingo) Why do our minds race the way they do? we constantly dwell on the nonsense, to others but what is meaningful to us. A lot of the time I find myself looking into my past, there is also something missing in the present that was there in the past. In the stages of life things change, so why not our feelings right? That's reasonable. But, there is that doubt, the inability, creeping up. You didn't doubt yourself as a kid, you flew through the motions and worked harder. As an adult though, your hardest can never be good enough. The constant fight that we are all battling whether at work or in home life, will always be there. In those teenage years, plenty of battles were fought and won time and time again and we moved on. Sure, there was dramatic times but that's what those years were about and time and time again, they were fun. After the responsibility hits, you stop believing in the possibilities because the realities make the daydreams impossible. You lose the sense of wonder and fulfillment and great plans for the future because the reality of it all is. It's a harsh world and until changes are made, people's dreams can not come true. When there are daily struggles and problems because of who you are. Sad to say its only on the decline, So to all the teenagers out there hold on to your sense of wonder it's not over yet.
I'm not trying to diss on the adult life, Yeah, it's not cookies and rainbows but it packs a punch, one that has some great things in it. Even when you, me or anyone you know is down in the dumps and doubting everything. There is always something there to keep that smile wide. Maybe you have found the greatest group of friends or found the love of your life. Maybe you love the homelife and are a suburban family with a handful of kids. You can doubt yourself all the time but believing in yourself is the best thing you can gift to you. You may not have achieved that once dream job but you have adjusted to the reality and have found something to work toward, a goal to achieve and finding the end of your goal is an achievement to smile about. When you doubt yourself or the others around you find comfort and know that "perfect" even though it defined in the dictionary does not mean its a requirement in life. Perfection should mean just the way you are.
I am now going to go choke on my own words and suck it up because I have my own way.
(I also want to note, that believability does not only pertain to your lives but the lives of those around you, I have found that it is hard to believe in those that have wronged you before but using your judgment and trusting your instincts will help in any situation no matter the outcome)
*Also Featured on MaddieTaylorknowsLife.com**
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