Life in a NutShell.

Let's just say that jumping back into the "saddle" can be tough, but you have already made the effort and put one foot in front of the other. Charting a course for your future is not an easy task, certainly not for me. People will always tell you to be resilient and to persevere and it's true you should because you are your own success only you and you alone have the power to make your dreams come into reality. I say that light spirited because it is so easy to be excited and make yourself believe that you can see this potential triumph all the way to the finish line but as time drag on and the workflows, with each new class you feel a sense of Awe and accomplishment that only you can be proud of and you should cherish that grade because it will get you far. There are also the what if's tuition, fees, technical issues, the struggle. Maybe your not doing so well in a course. I thought that I was invincible, finishing up the rest of my Associates with countless ...

Long title I know but I leave little mystery tonight, There is a lot on my mind and a new profound discovery that has me in a state of Awe, the bad thing is that it isn't at all bad but beneficial and in all reality a gift. But why can't I come to terms? why can't I stand up and say okay! and tackle it like a hurdle on the track field. Is it different this time, I don't know maybe, I have one so what's two but am I ready for the juggle well now I have to be? I have the nickname "Matter of fact Maddie" for a reason, there is significance there, but why is this issue different. I'm stuck pondering the what ifs and honestly on the brink of terrified. It can't make my life worse, again it's a gift, unexpected but wrapped in that proverbial bow that life throws our way. I have time, a good about of time, in fact, to accept and move forward. In a Christian sense, I can't help but believe that this a test of my strength from a higher pow...

Yeah, I said that as a title because we talk about the pressure to conform or complete a task and are always confronted with witless banter and ways to enhance behaviours but it is rarely talked about that there are pressures when it comes to being ourselves. What?! I know you would think it's quite easy to stop acting a fool and just be you but not everything is as it seems because you may have family breathing down your neck, a boss that wants to see if you're ready for a higher up position. So your strained you want to be you but then again you really want that job because it offers amazing benefits and you might have that one Aunt that is "holier than though" so in a way you are pressured to live up to expectations. Trust me, I've been there and although I say Dare to be different and be yourself. Well, I truly mean it. If family out of all people can't accept you for you and the choices you make cut them off because they are offering nothing but added...

Sorry guys, been down and out for the count since New Years, broke my glasses, gained cold that gets worse and worse. Started a new class which is nice, considering I'm not a math whiz and that was a sarcastic comment. A little humour to start, we all have those rough days, where something seems to happen whether big or small. How many can relate to those days when one thing goes wrong and there are a domino effect and everything topples over from there and by the end of the day, you want to give up on life. Happen a lot? I know to me too! I'm sure they happen to all of us because we are not only intelligent but a clumsy creature. How about those days that you wake up and for no apart reason you are B***** (no, I'm not going to say it this time) I'm not only talking to the ladies because we all have those days, I don't care who you are. But, we complain about everything and all around hate the life we live, What's funny is that a small percent of us actua...