Long title I know but I leave little mystery tonight,
There is a lot on my mind and a new profound discovery that has me in a state of Awe, the bad thing is that it isn't at all bad but beneficial and in all reality a gift.
But why can't I come to terms? why can't I stand up and say okay! and tackle it like a hurdle on the track field.
Is it different this time, I don't know maybe, I have one so what's two but am I ready for the juggle well now I have to be?
I have the nickname "Matter of fact Maddie" for a reason, there is significance there, but why is this issue different. I'm stuck pondering the what ifs and honestly on the brink of terrified.
It can't make my life worse, again it's a gift, unexpected but wrapped in that proverbial bow that life throws our way. I have time, a good about of time, in fact, to accept and move forward.
In a Christian sense, I can't help but believe that this a test of my strength from a higher power.
I don't know.
I know that you all have been there with one or more instances in your life where it can either throw you for a loop and have you face first in the dirt, but I am curious of how many are resilient and suck it up after the fact. If you're willed like me, you can. Aren't we allowed to have at least one major freak out in our lives when we have calmly sat through the rest of the S*** with a resting B**** face?
Am I mentally prepared, iI believe I am, LikeImentioned previously I have one what's another? I've always considered my mind wiser then my age because I have matured way beyond my peers, mainly through instances that life has thrown me, but in a sense I have been a mental adult since pre- teen years and yeah you might think " that poor girl" but why embrace it because your only more equipped for the issues in the end.
Thanks guys:)
Madye
There is a lot on my mind and a new profound discovery that has me in a state of Awe, the bad thing is that it isn't at all bad but beneficial and in all reality a gift.
But why can't I come to terms? why can't I stand up and say okay! and tackle it like a hurdle on the track field.
Is it different this time, I don't know maybe, I have one so what's two but am I ready for the juggle well now I have to be?
I have the nickname "Matter of fact Maddie" for a reason, there is significance there, but why is this issue different. I'm stuck pondering the what ifs and honestly on the brink of terrified.
It can't make my life worse, again it's a gift, unexpected but wrapped in that proverbial bow that life throws our way. I have time, a good about of time, in fact, to accept and move forward.
In a Christian sense, I can't help but believe that this a test of my strength from a higher power.
I don't know.
I know that you all have been there with one or more instances in your life where it can either throw you for a loop and have you face first in the dirt, but I am curious of how many are resilient and suck it up after the fact. If you're willed like me, you can. Aren't we allowed to have at least one major freak out in our lives when we have calmly sat through the rest of the S*** with a resting B**** face?
Am I mentally prepared, iI believe I am, LikeImentioned previously I have one what's another? I've always considered my mind wiser then my age because I have matured way beyond my peers, mainly through instances that life has thrown me, but in a sense I have been a mental adult since pre- teen years and yeah you might think " that poor girl" but why embrace it because your only more equipped for the issues in the end.
Thanks guys:)
Madye
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